Hmmm...

Well - I am sitting here in my dorm room watching a movie (The Family Stone), and looking out the window at the people walking by with their school books and joking smiles. I see myself when I look out the window, but I also realize that I am not really here at all. During this time of transitioning back into life on campus with the caf. food and the routines has been more difficult than initially expected. I am thankful for the difficulty, but it is simultaneously...well - just that - difficult. I realize that I am a dreamer. A friend told me this the other day, and I have heard it before, but that is the truth. I am a dreamer. I dream a lot, and I dream big. I also know that I want to pursue my dreams, and that I never ever want to settle. I guess ambition accompanies dreaming, and I think I like the combination. As I sit here trying to think of where I am at this moment in time, I do not really have an answer. I know now that I love traveling. I know that I love meeting people from different places and making friends from around the world. I know now that I don't like everyday routines, and that not knowing what each day will hold is an excitement that gives me an incredible high (maybe I'm easy to please). I know that I love realizing God is wherever I go, even thousands and thousands of miles away from this place. I know that I love cities and being able to walk "just three blocks that way" to whatever location I'm seeking. I know that I love taking pictures and having 'wow' moments when I really do not know what else to say. I know that I love helping people, even if the only thing I do is give them a reason to smile. I know that I like putting myself out there and taking big leaps even if the initial jump is scary. I am here right now, in my dorm room, looking out the window at the people walking by with their school books and joking smiles. I am here right now, but I will not always be right here. I am here right now, and even if I find being here right now difficult, I know God will see me through, and that everything is okay. So, even though I want to go, even though I want to run, I'll stay right here, for this time, for this season, and smile knowing that I am a dreamer, and that I will pursue my dreams.